Life PLZ?

Lately, I've just been furious; sick of people. Sick of people and their arrogant, bastardly, egotistical, condescending and phoney attitudes.

People saying that they're "better" than me, and that I suck, and belittling me, people showing no sympathy whatsoever, people pretending to be my friends, people lying to my face while smiling, people going along with what I say because they want something, and people who call me selfish for complaining about how I feel, like they probably are right now, seeing all the "I's" and "My's" and "Me's" in my statement.

What am I to do with my life? My life feels so restricted, and it's like I'm not even allowed to THINK for myself anymore! Everybody sees fit trying to use me, rob me, and push me around, and I am SICK of it.

I can't even complain, because when I do, people just ignore me, or I get told the famous two words; "Shut up."

I am SERIOUSLY SICK OF THIS.  <---That is legitimately how I've felt the past year-and-a-half about this world and the people in it. I can't even say "Oh, I feel like choking someone", 'cause then the cops might show up thinking I was serious, or something.

I can't even see a Therapist because it's too expensive.

Tomorrow, I know I'm going to feel like an ass for typing this today, and I also hate that. I'm in a vicious cycle of hatred and rage towards myself and everyone else lately, and I hate that, too.

I've gone through the loop; hate, anger, and then depression. I get happy for a little while, just to go through the Shit Loop again.

Nothing seems to be helping me; prayer isn't helping, drawing no longer is helping, and I DEFINETELY don't want to have to take pills. I'm at a loss of what to do anymore.

I can't kill myself because it goes against everything I believe in, before some stupid troll even suggests it here. I wonder how many other people are experiencing this condition I like to call, "Life Plz" (joke on Bitch plz) :/


God help me.  I could really use some...